Insomnia

Well as if my life isn't full of up and downs as it is...I really could do without praying for sleep every night!

There really is not much worse than lying in bed night after night waiting for sleep to overcome you whilst knowing there is only a few precious hours til the morning alarm sounds. Then after dragging your ass out of bed, having to face a day of work whilst fighting the urge to close your eyes for just a moment or two.

Yesterday morning I had had enough, I couldn't face the day...so something had to be done! That led me straight to the doctor's surgery. Now this isn't the first visit in which the subject of my lack of sleep has arose...but having been sent away with other suggestions, none of which had much affect, I was now desperate for some help. I came away with a presciption for a little box of pills, but the jury is still out. Last night was not a resounding success but did however result in a few hours at least, which I suppose is at least better than nothing.

So onwards i'll sleepily plod til the next hurdle appears on the horizon.

Jen x

Letting go?

Well here I am again after falling off the radar for a little while. I'd like to say that the festive period brought everything that I wished for...but unfortunately it did not! It's funny how you can be surrounded by people but still feel so lonely because the one person you long for is missing. But I can't dwell on that any longer, sometimes you need to decide that the time is right to let go however hard that may be.

So maybe another fresh start is needed, maybe no more looking back on what could've been but looking now to what could be. These feelings inside are draining the life out of me but I want to live, I need to live...I want to rediscover my happy place, I want to shine once more.

So dig deep I will and find that inner strength that I know is lurking in the shadows of my mind, maybe then I can take those small tentative steps towards enjoying life once more.

Jen x